I’m okay.

But people hurt. The details always matter to me because I think it’s the little things that reveal the most about someone. It’s easy to do the big things; it’s the in-between things that are so grinding. Words they say, facial expressions they make, insensitive actions they take…any SMALL thing that happens in the FLEETING moment of an incredibly CASUAL situation could leave this huge impression in my mind for WEEKS, probably more. And I will brood and I will rage and I will churn that moment over and over in my mind until it SPOILS and it grows heavier and heavier until it drops from my head into my chest, my gut, my feet and then every single footstep I take will send that depraved thought screeching through my soul. One thought could prevent all this; literally just one thought. Is that too much to ask? One thought. Of me. From someone who is not me. Can I not expect that from someone I thought a friend? I don’t normally consider myself a sensitive person. In fact, I’m so laid-back that it’s a problem (probably; most likely). But this is a HORRIBLE feeling. This self-shattering realization that I’m not worth even a single thought; that my impact on a life I care about has been so minuscule; that I could be set aside so easily. Maybe I’m giving too little. Not enough reassuring words? Kind actions? Appropriate reactions? Or maybe I’m giving too much. Maybe my expectations are too high. Maybe I shouldn’t trust others so freely with my friendship. Maybe I should keep people distant because every single human being is BOUND to be selfish at some point in time.

Ha! I’ll get over it. But I probably won’t forget it.

humansofnewyork:

"I’m not really a talker when I have problems. It keeps me from seeming weak, but it also closes me off from the insights of other people."

Ditto.

(Reblogged from humansofnewyork)

Totoro Macaron!

Oh. Whaaaaaaat?

(Source: t-okkichuu)

(Reblogged from -asphyxiation-)

Quality Time & Acts of Service

ericscissorhands:

"He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee."

Crazy thing is that Jensen Ackles technically appears twice here.

(Reblogged from mylaughingdog)

-asphyxiation-:

frozenplanet:

The marine iguana is an iguana located only on the Galápagos Islands that has the ability, unique among modern lizards, to live and forage in the sea, making it a marine reptile. The iguana can dive over 30 ft into the water.

Son of godzilla

(Reblogged from -asphyxiation-)

I can’t sleep angry. Which sucks because 1. I’m tired 2. I shouldn’t be angry

Hurt

It’s such a humbling experience to fully realize how much of an asshole you were/are and how much pain you’ve caused a particular person or group of people. I guess I’m “lucky” to have this very, VERY direct line into the pain I’ve caused this one particular person, but what about all the others?

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This game, man…

laugh-addict:

4gifs

I want. So much.

laugh-addict:

4gifs

I want. So much.

(Source: ForGIFs.com)

(Reblogged from yannydoo)